Writer’s block........... This is exactly why I started writing in the first place, to say things like "I am facing a writer's block (sounds posh right! :D)".
That’s just me; I have always been attracted to an idea rather than the reality. I like the idea of being in love, but, when asked to commit; I drop the whole concept like a hot potato and escape the situation in a jiffy.
Whenever I was asked what I wanted to do, my face would turn blank. There are so many things I wanna do, it’s often & almost impossible to pin point at one thing and state “that’s what I wanna do”. I have been facing this dilemma since my kindergarten days (it’s true!). Picture this:
“A class room filled with four year olds; a teacher who had just shot the million dollar question - What do you want to become, when you grow up?, creative and ambitious replies in the form of words flying through the classroom. Amidst this, is one soul scared and confused to pick one word that could describe what she desires to become one day. This was kindda how I spent my whole schooling period!”
Today I see the words I refused to let out have formed a personality (I call her ‘thoughtsmith’) of its own and flow through various mediums - like this blog. I may still be the scared and confused type but my thoughts & words on the other hand have a mind of their own and have outgrown the comfort shells called fear and confusion, which I use to hide from this world.
Any psychiatrist will give a fancy name to this syndrome, (and I’m sure I will never be able to pronounce it right :P hehehe) it does not bother me. I await the day when I learn to accept the reality of things rather than the idea of it; till then I’m gonna let the thoughtsmith in me have a helluva time.
Adios / Sayonara / Good bye . . . . . . . . . . . . for now!
